Saturday, October 30, 2010

I Danced

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It was warm, dark, and a slightly rainy evening. Sitting at my computer with the window open I heard the sounds of the bustling city bellow my 12th story window. My stomach yearned for a snack of healthy organic freshness; Whole foods grocery store called to me like a lion in the middle of the African Savanna. I shut my laptop, grabbed my infamous Moody ID card, and headed downstairs.

As the doors opened and the soothing night air touched my bare skin, the freshness and beauty of the night overwhelmed me. I walked into the middle of the plaza as the rain began to come down in large droplets on my face. I looked up and raised my hands in my own personal worship session to the maker of the universe who I felt a divine connection with in that moment. After a brief moment of silence and praise, I moved forward. In my outfit not prepared for rain of such magnitude, I became soaked quickly. I smiled wider as every last warm drop of water hit my uncovered skin. Taxi’s honked, buses passed, but I deliberately stayed in the downpour.

Emotion enveloped me, prayers began to poor. Praise and past pain escaped my lips in jumbled words and phrases. Tears of joy and peace captivated my heart. I could feel Him as if he was standing physically in front of me, an encounter of extremes that I never experienced in such a way.

I entered Whole Foods, dripping from head to toe, ignoring the glaring looks of others as I passed through the produce section grabbing colorful fruits and veggies for my late night snack. Crossing the cash register, bidding goodnight to the sleepy looking checker, but not before making her giggle with a story of how sometimes you just have to play in the rain. I was anxious to enter the warm rainy night once again.

I exited the store and danced. I danced into the night of Chicago lights and sounds, a melody within my heart that had been put on full blasted which couldn’t be ignored.



Life should never become too structured for moments like dancing in the rain. Celebrations should be a daily occurrence. If you lose sight of the simple breath taking moments in life, you give into the negative, the bad, and the overwhelmingly painful. Take advantage of random moments of talking with strangers, random dancing, and midnight snacks. Sing in the car, on the freeway, with the windows down so that every passing car glares at you. Stop in a park and find that old man who paints and plead with him to share stories of yesterday. Volunteer at that children’s club down the street and learn about what pain means to them. Spend time in nursing home, and let an elderly woman change your life.

Share your love for Christ with people in the ways that he has revealed himself to you. A dancer doesn’t share the love of Christ the same way as a pastor, and a pastor doesn’t share the love of Christ the same way as a school teacher. A dancer dances for Christ and a pastor preaches for Christ. The action is different, but the love, the same. Sharing the love of Christ is a celebration, don’t get lost in the structure of everyday life.

Write your day in pencil, because pen is just too permanent.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

I LOVE ICE CREAM


I LOVE ice cream. I like singing at the top of my lungs to songs that make my heart sing. I love reading books while listening to piano music, lying on my stomach, with my legs crossed in the air, with candles and tons of junk food around me. I love yoga, ballet, musicals, fashion, and extreme amounts of coffee. I adore laying in sand, city in the background, waves crashing, praying with one of the most amazing friends God has graciously brought into my life. I have dreams of teaching children, traveling to Africa, praying with the broken, seeing my friends come to Christ, growing in relationship with my heavenly father, and pleasing him with my life.

I’m exactly who God has made me to be, I’m Steven Pokorski. I’m not my school, my job, my homework, my friends, or who any human being tells me I am. I am only the person that God has created me to be. If I tried to be someone else, it would be measured up to dressing up like Oprah Winfrey, four months after Halloween, and acting like nothing was out of place.


I’m not sorry that I love chick flicks, reading books like Cold Tangerines, and drinking coffee at a hole in the wall coffee place, with a group of girls, until 2 A.M. I’m not sorry that some of the joy God has placed in my soul comes from teaching a children’s choir, and dreaming about sharing his word as a 4th grade teacher.

I am who God tells me . I am who God has created me to be. If what I’m doing aligns with God’s Word, if it leads me in paths of righteousness and wisdom without hindrance to my relationship with my heavenly Father, you bet your britches it’s not going to change.

The best person you will ever know how to be, is you. God didn’t create you to be the next Barack Obama, Oprah Winfrey, or Shaquille O'Neal. He created you to be who he says you are. If that means you love to do things that don’t
fit the normal or the typical, praise God, he added a little spice when you came into the casserole of culture and personality within the body of Christ.

REFUSE to be anyone else, embrace who God has created you to be.

So with all you are and have been created to be, be brave, be bold, in who you are.



Psalms 139

1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.
5 You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, [a] you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to [b] me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.
19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.